Friends with benefits

I never thought I experienced it. But yeah now I do. Things just get worse if you don't spilt it out and that is what I'm doing right now. Who would ever thought that bunch of guys will make you feel like this. Maybe I'm just an ordinary girl who easily get offended. Not like what I think I am before. I'm not as tough as everybody think I am. So what? DO I NEED TO PLEASE EVERYONE?! Guess not. So what if I got offended on how you treat me. This is my feeling. Come to think about it, yes, you do hurt my feeling. Only need me when you get in trouble or being lonely. FUCK YOU ! You always complain that everyone just using you like a punching bag. Only needed you when they get in trouble. So do you have to do the same thing to me?! Is it fair to punish someone who cared about you just because you're hurt. SHIT JUST GOT REAL. How I will you both read this. But I guess not. Just come whenever you want. Leave me whenever you want. FUCK YOU! To be honest, I never knew that I was wrong to accept you as my best friend. Maybe we will never be. So yeah.